What Makes God Smile? Does God like Roses?

Maybe God smiles because my life is a JOKE?  I am kidding, because I don't honestly believe God is like that, or that God would laugh at my situation.  However, maybe I should begin laughing at my situation, instead of taking things so seriously. 

Recently, I felt like I was watching way too much TV, and it was getting in the way of other things I need to be doing like studying, like reading, like excersising, like writing, or praying or any number of things that would be more healthy and wise to do.   Now, I sublet my apartment and the owner lives upstairs.  He has been getting free cable for over five years now, and so, I have been getting that as a bonus for free.   Well just recently, it got cut off, so, to make a long story short, I am without TV, unless I want to subcribe myself and pay for it.  Now, I find that a bit interesting, could it be a coincidence?

Actually, so far, I am not minding not  having TV.  I do have internet, and I can watch a lot of things on my computer, but so far, I have just been sleeping more.  I suppose that is good, since I am so tired and lack energy.  That isn't working though, because, the more sleep I get, the more sleep I want. 

Yesterday, I decided, I must be a weed, and for some strange reason, I was content with that, and it seemed to take a lot of pressure off of me.  After all, God can't expect much from a little ol' weed, now could he?  It took so much pressure off me, that I felt light and airy.  I got dressed and went to church for the 11 a.m. service, but, due to summer hours (I have not been going all summer) there had been only one service and it ended at that time.  Well so much for lifting my little petals and praising God!

Since it was Sunday, and I was all dressed up with no place to go, I decided I would go look at cars, cheaper cars, one that might be suitable for a WEED.  I found a suitable car, and took it for a test drive, to my daughters house.  She took one look at it and said "No Mom, that is just not suitable", so without asking any other questions, because I already knew what she was thinking, I took it back and test drove another vehicle, a little less in value than the one a Great Oak would drive.  The car salesmen told me to take it as long as I wanted, so I picked up my grandaughter, and we sped around for more than an hour, listening to music, and enjoying the heated seats and air conditioning all at the same time.  I was really enjoying her company, the vehicle, and I was beginning to feel more like a ROSE.  It was a good feeling. 

Does God like Roses?  Do they make him smile?  So now I am wondering, if it is my own feelings of self worth, that are keeping me from enjoying my life, and turning my back on my own needs?  Am I loving myself less than what God loves me?  Is it me who is selling myself short?  Sitting in my comfort zone, thinking I am a weed, and not worthy of being loved, or having a few luxuries in life?  God knows that I need a new car, a safer car, one that is going to hold the road in the winter, and will be reliable due to the fact that I do travel around a lot in my car.  It would be nice to spoil myself a little, after all no one else is doing it.  But then I worry, about all the if's, and I get so sad just thinking about them.  It makes me afraid, and fear rises in my throat and chokes out my happiness, my contentment, my self love and my self worth.  Am I being silly?  Maybe God has a Purpose in me having a new car?  Maybe He knows something I don't, but one thing I do know, is this car idea, will not leave me alone.  It is in my head, and I am compelled.  Compelled by God?  Compelled by my own selfish desires?  What is compelling me?  I am not completely sure, but, I do have a desire to please God, and I can honestly say with all my heart this morning "Let Thine Will Be Done". 

Day 9

May the Lord Smile on you.

Numbers 6:25

Smile on me your Servant, teach me the right way to live.

Pslam 119:135

This chapter says that making God smile is the goal of my life, and my most important task is to discover how to do that.  Now, that is a task and a half!

In my heart I know I would please God by trusting him with knowing what is best for my life.

POINT TO PONDER

God smiles when I trust him.

VERSE TO REMEMBER

"The Lord is pleased with those who worship him and trust his love"

Psalm 147:11

QUESTION TO CONSIDER

Since God knows what is best, in what area's of my life do I need to trust him most?

Today I would say the area that I need to trust him most in, is in my finances, I can honestly say, I do not trust God in this area of my life at all!  Could this be in fact a test in Trust?