I went out for a walk yesterday, but it seemed as soon as I did, the sun faded and it got cold, cloudy and rainy. The wierd thing was, all I noticed were blue vehicles. The reason for this is probably because the car salesment told me the vehicle he had in mind for me is blue. It is my favorite color, but I am not so sure I want a blue SUV.
The only thing I saw of God's Glory, were three geese flying south, honking happily as they escaped this place. Even the geese are smart enough to get out of here before winter starts. Ugh! Winter. I just have to stay in the moment, thank God it is not here yet.
I am on Day 8 of the Purpose Driven Life, and I am amazed at how none of this seems to be penetrating my hard heart. Mostly, I am feeling angry at God, not that it is doing me any good at all. I can also feel myself digging in my heels, and I have an urge to throw this book across the room. I won't though, because I am thinking God is my only hope, somewhere deep inside, I still am believing He can change my heart.
So, Purpose #1 says I was planned for God's pleasure, and I should worship him.
For God has planted them like strong and graceful oaks for his own glory. Isaiah 61:3
He must be thinking of someone else, because I sure do not feel like a strong and graceful oak, I feel like a weed, a scrawny weed, being tossed in the wind, without any strength at all. Now, how is that glorifying God, there is nothing about me that is glorifying God.
However, I think, God did create the weeds too. Perhaps I can be a pretty flowering weed. Sometimes they are nice to look at, even if they are an UNLOVED FLOWER. If there is a way I can glorify God, just as I am, I can do that, I just can not be something I am not, unless God changes me. It is too much work to be an Oak, it just is not natural for a weed.
Point to Ponder:
I was planned for God's Pleasure
Verse to Remember:
"The Lord takes Pleasure in his people" Psalm 149:4
Question to Consider:
What common task could I start doing as if I were doing it directly for Jesus?
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| The Weed is an Unloved Flower, I will raise my petals in praise, anyway. I can do that much. |
All that I can think of to say Simone is that my mother gave me that book to read a few years back. I started it but just couldn't make it through.
ReplyDeleteI feel that life is very hard most days. But I also feel that it isn't meant to be happy all of the time. I try to keep my sense of humor to make it through. I forget to pray when times are tough. That is one of my faults I think.
I still think you are doing good by keeping your faith so strong, even through difficult times. That's not an easy task for some.
I hope the sun shines for you tomorrow!
Love Di ♥
Hello Diana,
ReplyDeleteI am determined to get through this book, even if it kills me. I too have started it before, but found it too hard to continue.
I don't think I am looking to be happy all the time, content, would be a better word, or at peace, but not feeling worthless, and damned to unhappiness and failure. I detest being depressed and lonely, and although I have tried hard to accept these feelings, they hold on for far too long and drag me down into a pit of despair. I am in a way fighting for my life here, because I don't think I can live this way any longer. The only way is UP for me, because I have already hit ROCK BOTTOM.
Maybe you should try reading the book one more time in honor of your mother. I gave it to my daughter recently too. I think the journey would be interesting and I would love to hear about yours.
Simone