"It's All in Your Mind?"

The mornings are dark and cold now, and Simone is finding it harder and harder to get out of bed.  This morning she awoke long before the sun came up and stewed in a broth of putrid thoughts.  Around and around they stirred in her head, making her feel tired despite the hours of sleep she'd had.  She had even retired early the evening before, because she was exhausted even then. 

The brick wall in front of her seemed more ominous than ever this morning, and it seemed that all of her chipping away at it the past week or so had come to naught.  "Trying harder, just was not working" Simone reasoned, as she thought about how she had tried so hard to lose weight, to get fit, to eat right, to do better at her job, to save money, to do good, to go to church, to say and do all the right things.  "Exhausting!" she sighed, as she rolled out of bed and started her morning coffee, and grabbed the new book she had bought the day before.  It was right beside the "Purpose Driven Life" on the shelf, and for just a moment she almost chose it instead.

As the smell of freshly brewed coffee filled her nostrils, some of her putrid thinking escaped her mind, and as she cozies up in her favorite chair with the new cup that said "Reinvent" on it, a gift from her daughter, and her book, she suddenly realized she had a really bad attitude toward life.  It was her thinking that was keeping her captive, and she began to read the Introduction, and the words upon the page struck her like a lightening bolt.

"It's All in Your Mind

Whatever you hold in your mind will tend to occur in your life. 

If you continue to believe as you have always believed.

you will continue to act as you have always acted.

If you continue to act as you have always acted,

you will continue to get what you have always gotten.

If you want different results in your life or your work,

all you have to do is change your mind."

                                                                         --Anonymous

She had been praying that God would speak to her, and as she read, her spirit stirred within...and suddenly part of a bible verse came to mind  "take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ" and she realized she needed to think about what she was thinking about.

"I would love to change my mind" she mused "but how?"  For as long as Simone could remember, she had bad thoughts, defeating thoughts, putrid thinking, but somehow it had never occurred to her, as it did in this moment that it was affecting her life, keeping her captive and in a terrible and unbearable rut.  Her thinking was in fact the brick wall she had been trying to break through physically, emotionally and spiritually, and it was her mind..."the brick wall is my own mind"